One word for 2012

It’s the first day of 2012, and although I know that I could make New Years Resolutions, I know that I won’t stick to them.  Instead, I am going to follow the lead of a number of people, including Amber at www.strocel.com, whom I’ve known for longer that I will admit to you, and come up with a word that I will try to live by for the next year.

Sound easy?  It wasn’t for me.  It’s been a big year for me, in some ways.  In other ways, it’s been pretty tough.  We’ve had a lot of challenges, but also a lot of fun.  I started doing pole fitness, which has given me back something that I lost a long time ago.  Confidence in myself.  It’s still a struggle, but now I don’t look at myself every single day with a negative thought.  Some days, yes, but not every day.  That is a big change for me.  I’ve struggled with self-confidence for as long as I can remember.  I’ve never been that girl who fit in easily, who was the pretty, popular girl that everyone loved.  I’ve never been a tiny girl, no matter how hard I tried, and the awful, stupid, extreme measures that I took.  I never looked like everyone else, dressed like everyone else, or listened to the same music as everyone else.  I know now that these are some of the things that make me who I am today, but it’s taken me a long time to come to that realization.

I’m pretty sure that I’ve said this before, but through pole, I’ve proven to myself that I don’t need to be a certain size to meet the expectations and goals that I set for myself.  I’ve shown myself, and maybe a few others along the way, that I am stronger and tougher than I realized, and that if I set my mind to something, no matter how hard it seems at first, I can do it.  I knew these things once, when I was in the Army, but they are lessons that are easy to forget.  At least they were for me.  Sometimes, I am able to get a glimpse of myself through the eyes of those around me.  Eyes that see me for who and what I am, not what I think I am.

This all translates into the rest of my life too.  I am less stressed as a wife and mother, and I have an outlet and a place that I know is just for me.  I am healthier, and physically stronger, more able to face obstacles as they appear in my path.  I am setting a good example for my son, who understands about exercise, and how it can be fun.  I don’t automatically jump to conclusions that I am wrong, or at fault, especially in cases where it is clearly not me.

I’m starting to believe.  In myself, and in others.

So that will be my word for 2012.  Believe.

I know that it’s not going to be easy.  I feel like I am setting myself up a bit, but that’s ok, I like a challenge.

Do you have any resolutions?  Or a word to live by this year?  I’d love to hear them.

Happy New Year, my friends, and thanks for joining me on this journey.

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3 Responses to One word for 2012

  1. Amber says:

    I almost went with “believe” for myself – it’s a GREAT word. And I believe in you.

    Happy New Year!

  2. That is a great word! Mine sort of came to me over the course of several weeks (if not more), and like everyone else’s does better with a little context. 😉

  3. Pingback: One Word to Set an Intention for the Year: Clarity | Crafting my Life

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